September 2011
110. My last name: Grace
109. I was born in: Kansas
108. I am really: Content, for now.
107. My phone is: a Purple Rumor touch
106. My eye color is: Bloo.
105. My ring size is: unknown…
104. My height is: 5’8ish
103. I am allergic to: bullsh!t
102. I was born on: July 28th
101. I am annoyed by: Stupidity & Laziness
100. This question was stupid, so I deleted it. SUCK IT.
99. My bed is: clean, and perfect momentarily.
98: One thing you don’t like about yourself: My nose and attitude lately
97. Do you sleep on your side, stomach, or back: Left side, only.
96. How do you vent anger: I like to write, and cry.
95. How did your day start off: Sleepy, so sleepy.
94. Do you get along with guys or girls better: I’ve never honestly noticed a definition
93. How do you think you look right this moment: naked, pretty naked.
92. Last person you went to the movies with: Justin? Maybe Nathan.
91. My favorite Holiday is: Just the holiday season in general
90. The last CD I bought was: Blank
89. Do you have any siblings: Four!
88. What did you do yesterday: Drove around, Hung out with Justin
87. When in doubt?: Go with what you know.
:::I Do /Do Not Believe In:::
86. Love at first sight: I do not
85. Luck: yes
84. Fate: Yep
83. Aliens: Sure
82. Heaven: Yes
81. Hell: Yep
80. Ghosts: Yes’m
79. Horoscopes: meh
78. Soulmates: Yes
77. Karma: Yes
:::Which is Better?:::
76. Drunk or High: High
75. On the phone or online: Phone
74. Red heads or blondes: Red heads, FTW!
73. Blondes or Brunettes: Blondes
72. Hot or cold: hot
71. Summer or Winter: SUMMER.
70. Chocolate or vanilla: Depends,
69.Night or Day?: Night
68. Oranges or Apples: Both
67. Curly or Straight hair: I wish I had curly hair
::Here’s What I Think About:::
66. Abortion: No
65. Backstabbers: Shit happens
64. Parents: <3
:::Last time I:::
63. Hugged someone: Hours ago <3
62. Saw someone: 1am
61: Cried in front of someone: Today
:::Random:::
60. Who is the ditziest person you know: Brooke Garner
59. Who makes you laugh: Too many to name
58. Last show you watched: JERSDAY! Then archer.
57. What you don’t understand is: Life
56. The most unsatisfying answer: ‘k’
55. Something I really miss when I leave home is: My bed
54. The thing I’m looking forward to the most is: Sleep will be nice.
53. Tomorrow: First Friday shift D:
52. Today: Was good,
51. Next Summer: I’m moving out, I hope.
50. This Weekend: Should be good <3
49. The person(s) who knows the most about me is: My mother
48. The most difficult thing to do is: Let go, not care, move on.
47. I haven’t gotten a speeding ticket: Since the beginning of summer :(
46. The first person I talked to today was: My teacher
45. First time you had a crush: 3rd grade, Ben Boutwell
44. The one person who I can’t hide things from: My mother
43. Last time someone said something you were thinking: Today
42. Right now I am talking to: Technically Nathan
41. What is your dream job: Travel Photographer
40. First job: Hostess
39. I have had these pets: dog, dog, dog, cat, cat, dog, dog.
38. I can still see: tonight replaying in my head, mmm.
37. The worst sound in the world is: the microwave beep
36. The person who makes me cry the most: myself, really
35. Best sound in the world: Laughter
34. Who makes you happy: Nathan, Family, Friends.
33. Cats or dogs: meeeeh.
32. MySpace or Facebook: Facebook.
31. Mexican food or Chinese: MELTYCHEESE Mexican.
30. My favorite piece of clothing: Cute jeans and Jackets
29. My favorite color(s) are: Purple and Green!
28. Last time I cried: today
27. My friends: I have few, but they are incredible.
26. My computer is: in need of replacing.
25. Last person I got mad at: Nathan, and then myself.
24. Person you secretly crush on: No one
23. Favorite place to eat: On The Border
22. Favorite song : Too broad.
21. The all-time best show is: Boy Meets World
20. The all-time best feeling in the world is: Contentment
19. Favorite scent: Vurt <3
18. What color is your hairbrush: I have quite an assortment
17. Favorite shoes: My black sparkly Heels
16. I lose all respect for people who: are full of themselves
15. Favorite channel to watch: Comedy central, E!, Lifetime and Fx
14. Favorite food: MELTYCHEESE.
13. Favorite day of the week: Saturday
12. Best Feature(s) in the opposite sex: Eyes, Smile
11. The worst pain I was ever in was: being alone.
10. Best Memory: Freshman summer/sophomore year
9. Favorite TV show: How I Met Your Mother, Greys Anatomy, The OC
8. My favorite singer/band: Too broad.
7. Favorite Stuffed Animal: Norm
6. Greatest Fear: Failure
5. My weakness is: my impatience and those who I love
4. When was your last concert: The Script!
3. Who broke your heart: I don’t believe in heartbreak.
2. One thing that makes you feel great is: Good people, good music.
1. One person that you wish you could see right now: Nathan.
I need to hear this.
Sometimes the edge serves as more than
a friend then you thought it would be
And the pages you write in your
journal each night are your only release
And the mask you put on it’s like
words in a song but there’s no more to be seen
And the failure you see,
don’t seem failures to me here at all
Oh I’m begging you no,
there’s more life left to go
Oh I’m begging you please,
cause I don’t want you to leave
Alone as you walk through a crowd and
it’s awkward like nobody sees
And you can’t help but wonder would
anyone come after you if you’d leave
So a pain grows inside and a fear comes
alive like you’ll never be free
But there’s no pain you feel that
I know love can’t heal here at all
Oh I’m begging you no,
there’s more life left to go
Oh I’m begging you please,
cause I don’t want you to leave me
To leave me here on my own,
there’s nothing to run from
Oh there’s nothing but fear inside you
Oh I just hope I can find you
And tell you that I know you’ll smile again
Oh I’m begging you no,
there’s more life left to go
Oh I’m begging you please,
cause I don’t want you to leave…
I am so incredibly miserable.
I cannot find purpose in anything,
I dont know why I am here
and constantly have to remind myself that
it will ever get better.
That i will eventually change.
I dont feel like i will ever be happy again,
like i will ever feel useful.
I just want to stop existing, for just FIVE minutes.
I want my brain to stop, and my lungs to
be still and my heart to stop pumping blood.
I want nothing but black, just five minutes of peace.
