October 2011
this was not just some forfeit love, made to fall away.” —
That I am not the friend you deserve
That I am not where I told myself I would be
That I am unmotivated
That I am still at home
That I am so impulsive
That I am an insomniac
That I am so uncertain of everything
That everything must be so temporary
That I cant text back
That I am so inconsistent
That I have such high standards
That I feel so alone
That I feel like im in your way
That my mommy is gone so much
That my brother is not here
That my bffEFF and sister are living lives so far from my own
That time changes everything
That time changes nothing
That Im so critical
That the things I say mean less and less
That I overanalyze everything
That Im not close to God
That Im such a mess
That I am such a procrastinator
That I think too much
That I have so many questions without answers
That I push people away
That Im scared
That Im so anxious
That Im so young
That Im so old
That I miss you
That I love so recklessly